Where do we go from here?

I wanted to apologize.  I've been so absent lately.  Some of you know why.  I've been friendslocking my most recent posts and putting them on a filter.

I also don't see that changing any time soon.

I have some things to work through still.  I haven't been a very good friend to some, and I feel guilty for that.  I want to be there for others.  Sometimes I find it hard to do that.  I find it hard to do a lot of things, but that's not really my point.

Forgive me if I sound... angsty.  I just... a friend gave me his opinion on my situation.  I'm really disturbed by his take on things.  The thing is?  He may be right.  And that scares me.

I do have changes made in my own mind about my life.  I want to rebuild my life.  Who is included in that life is yet to be determined, at least on some fronts.  I really am okay right now, but I hate change.  Unfortunately, sometimes things can't always stay the same.

But I'm babbling again.  I really just wanted to make this post, a public post, for those of you who may have been wondering what happened.  Honestly, I'm just trying to keep myself busy these days.

I love you all, you all that are there on my friends list.  You mean a lot to me.  It probably sounds trite, but maybe some day I'll find a way to thank you personally.

Perhaps I'll start now...

...thank you.

*hugs*

Where do we go from here?

I wanted to apologize.  I've been so absent lately.  Some of you know why.  I've been friendslocking my most recent posts and putting them on a filter.

I also don't see that changing any time soon.

I have some things to work through still.  I haven't been a very good friend to some, and I feel guilty for that.  I want to be there for others.  Sometimes I find it hard to do that.  I find it hard to do a lot of things, but that's not really my point.

Forgive me if I sound... angsty.  I just... a friend gave me his opinion on my situation.  I'm really disturbed by his take on things.  The thing is?  He may be right.  And that scares me.

I do have changes made in my own mind about my life.  I want to rebuild my life.  Who is included in that life is yet to be determined, at least on some fronts.  I really am okay right now, but I hate change.  Unfortunately, sometimes things can't always stay the same.

But I'm babbling again.  I really just wanted to make this post, a public post, for those of you who may have been wondering what happened.  Honestly, I'm just trying to keep myself busy these days.

I love you all, you all that are there on my friends list.  You mean a lot to me.  It probably sounds trite, but maybe some day I'll find a way to thank you personally.

Perhaps I'll start now...

...thank you.

*hugs*