My dreams are calling...
Aug. 12th, 2005 01:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
saifaiDreams & Books
There might have been a poetic thought or two flitting about my head about that subject. My dreams. They've been calling me again. I get story ideas. My lastest has hit me pretty hard and won't let up. I know it's a book in progress when it evolves on its own.
This one has taken a life of its own. It calls me when I'm tired. Lets me know its time to dream more of it. One of these days I may have to actually write it. I'm a bit scared though. I've been starting to dream original characters. That's so unusual for me.
Usually I dream in movies. I cast the roles with actors I've seen recently. I setup the action shots. I direct and re-direct depending on how the scene went along. This time it's becoming different. There's a woman in my dreams I've never seen before. I have yet to see her face, but I know I don't know her. I guess you could say I'm building her. It's exciting and frightening all at the same time.
Friends & Masks
Wow. Not really what I intended to say here. That just sort of came out. I went to the back-to-school training for work. It was a 2-day training conference. Was an interesting experience, especially for someone like me who is such an anti-social butterfly. I hear a lot of comments second hand through my hubby, who walks the same circles, only actually talks to the people.
Kinda makes me laugh sometimes. I think he's been painting a scary picture for them about my temperment, but they don't seem to pay him any mind. Most of them see me as a sweet person they wish they could catch long enough to talk to. It's a weird feeling, and one I find hard to trust. One of these days I may actually have to drop the mask and make an effort.
In the mean time, I'm never going to catch up with comments. Seriously folks, I've just given up. However, I've got a folder full of emails I'm going to catch up on tomorrow. I've been slowly going back and catching posts made by you all. Little by little. I've been taking some time for myself though. Made some admissions about myself, especially as it deals with my depression. Did I mention I finally admitted to my hubby that I have it?
Rambling Thoughts & Queer as Folk
So. As you can tell I've become introspective as of late. I think I"ll take a break here before I go on any longer. Also, I just finished Season 2 of QAF. Darned if I can find a download of Season 3, so I may have to buy it if I can't find one. *pouts* Well worth the cost so far though. I try to be angry with Brian for the way he acted, and equally with Justin. I just can't though. It was inevitable for it to happen. I admit I've skipped ahead and watched an episode from Season 5. The twelfth one I think. Very interesting to see how much they've changed. I don't get a lot of it though, so I'll just stick to what I've got for now. Emmett? Just as cute as ever. *pinches his cheeks* o.0
Finally, I love you guys. I miss you guys. I know I haven't been around much, and have not been involved in fandom as a creator as much as I used to. A lot of folks from my flist have been dropping off, and that's okay. I'm still in the fandom. Very much so in fact. I guess I'm just taking time to re-explore my inner artist and giving her time to grow in her own time. That's about all I can say about that.
*hugs everyone and hands out chocolates*
There might have been a poetic thought or two flitting about my head about that subject. My dreams. They've been calling me again. I get story ideas. My lastest has hit me pretty hard and won't let up. I know it's a book in progress when it evolves on its own.
This one has taken a life of its own. It calls me when I'm tired. Lets me know its time to dream more of it. One of these days I may have to actually write it. I'm a bit scared though. I've been starting to dream original characters. That's so unusual for me.
Usually I dream in movies. I cast the roles with actors I've seen recently. I setup the action shots. I direct and re-direct depending on how the scene went along. This time it's becoming different. There's a woman in my dreams I've never seen before. I have yet to see her face, but I know I don't know her. I guess you could say I'm building her. It's exciting and frightening all at the same time.
Friends & Masks
Wow. Not really what I intended to say here. That just sort of came out. I went to the back-to-school training for work. It was a 2-day training conference. Was an interesting experience, especially for someone like me who is such an anti-social butterfly. I hear a lot of comments second hand through my hubby, who walks the same circles, only actually talks to the people.
Kinda makes me laugh sometimes. I think he's been painting a scary picture for them about my temperment, but they don't seem to pay him any mind. Most of them see me as a sweet person they wish they could catch long enough to talk to. It's a weird feeling, and one I find hard to trust. One of these days I may actually have to drop the mask and make an effort.
In the mean time, I'm never going to catch up with comments. Seriously folks, I've just given up. However, I've got a folder full of emails I'm going to catch up on tomorrow. I've been slowly going back and catching posts made by you all. Little by little. I've been taking some time for myself though. Made some admissions about myself, especially as it deals with my depression. Did I mention I finally admitted to my hubby that I have it?
Rambling Thoughts & Queer as Folk
So. As you can tell I've become introspective as of late. I think I"ll take a break here before I go on any longer. Also, I just finished Season 2 of QAF. Darned if I can find a download of Season 3, so I may have to buy it if I can't find one. *pouts* Well worth the cost so far though. I try to be angry with Brian for the way he acted, and equally with Justin. I just can't though. It was inevitable for it to happen. I admit I've skipped ahead and watched an episode from Season 5. The twelfth one I think. Very interesting to see how much they've changed. I don't get a lot of it though, so I'll just stick to what I've got for now. Emmett? Just as cute as ever. *pinches his cheeks* o.0
Finally, I love you guys. I miss you guys. I know I haven't been around much, and have not been involved in fandom as a creator as much as I used to. A lot of folks from my flist have been dropping off, and that's okay. I'm still in the fandom. Very much so in fact. I guess I'm just taking time to re-explore my inner artist and giving her time to grow in her own time. That's about all I can say about that.
*hugs everyone and hands out chocolates*
