Where do we go from here?

[saifai]

I wanted to apologize.  I've been so absent lately.  Some of you know why.  I've been friendslocking my most recent posts and putting them on a filter.

I also don't see that changing any time soon.

I have some things to work through still.  I haven't been a very good friend to some, and I feel guilty for that.  I want to be there for others.  Sometimes I find it hard to do that.  I find it hard to do a lot of things, but that's not really my point.

Forgive me if I sound... angsty.  I just... a friend gave me his opinion on my situation.  I'm really disturbed by his take on things.  The thing is?  He may be right.  And that scares me.

I do have changes made in my own mind about my life.  I want to rebuild my life.  Who is included in that life is yet to be determined, at least on some fronts.  I really am okay right now, but I hate change.  Unfortunately, sometimes things can't always stay the same.

But I'm babbling again.  I really just wanted to make this post, a public post, for those of you who may have been wondering what happened.  Honestly, I'm just trying to keep myself busy these days.

I love you all, you all that are there on my friends list.  You mean a lot to me.  It probably sounds trite, but maybe some day I'll find a way to thank you personally.

Perhaps I'll start now...

...thank you.

*hugs*

Comments

[velvetwhip.livejournal.com]

:::hugs you tightly:::

If you need me, I'm here. I'm holding all kinds of good thoughts for you!


Gabrielle

[saifai.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Good thoughts are always needed.

[reddwarf75.livejournal.com]

Just wanted to give u a *hug* :)
marie

[saifai.livejournal.com]

Hugs are wonderful. *gloms* Thank you. :)

[moss6886.livejournal.com]

*hugs back*

[saifai.livejournal.com]

::smooch:: :)

[mygothangel.livejournal.com]

take the time you need, I know how important it is
and the change? maybe it's not as bad as you think

*hugs*

[saifai.livejournal.com]

I think change will be good for me, I just dread it. The box full of hugs is cute, and appreciated as well. *hugs*

[darkhavens.livejournal.com]

{{{{{{{{{smish}}}}}}}}}}

[saifai.livejournal.com]

*gloms* You're lovely. *hugs*

[trekqueen.livejournal.com]

*BIG glomps and hugses* Love is time and life is patience. Things cannot be rushed nor can they be forced. I'm still holding out hope for you two that this will turn out in a good way.

[saifai.livejournal.com]

Love is time and life is patience. Things cannot be rushed nor can they be forced.

Thank you. I like that. Regardless of what has happened, I honestly hope for the best still too. So thank you for that. *hugs*

[trekqueen.livejournal.com]

*more hugs* hey we, your friends, will always be here for you. :D

[chicken-cem.livejournal.com]

Hugs back. I am sorry I have been absent for so long!

[saifai.livejournal.com]

Meh. We're both here now. That says something, right? *hugs* Take care of yourself, luv.