saifai | On the brink of disaster and elation

I'm in a weird place right now. On the one hand, hubby and I are on the brink of financial disaster. We think we're going to have to file for bankruptcy around February. On the other hand, hubby has submitted his business plan to a local branch of a national brokerage firm for funding. It's getting really good feedback so far from the locals (enough to qualify it...). The national circulars won't go out for it until Thursday. If we get our funding, it could mean a gi-huge-ic increase in our income.

It's just strange. I should be more worried than I am about our bankruptcy, but I'm just not. We've talked to a lawyer, and we're fairly confident we could repair our credit within 6 months or so (only because of what one of the companies we're in debt to has done...). Also, if we get the funding we need, then it wouldn't matter anyway. But that's another story. I'm not sure I'll know what to do with all that money. It'll be kind of a shock for me if it happens.

I don't know. I think I'm confused. I can't decide whether to be happy or upset.